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Time:04:21 pm
Our little dog died today.

After her lungs collapsing a week ago the vet said we could bring her home because they got her breathing to a semi normal level. She was home for 3 days and had a vet appointment today.

After they took her into the back room she collapsed again and her heart stopped. They let my mom back to see her one last time and when my mom started petting her and talking her heart beat a few more times.

Talk about sad.
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Time:10:53 am
Scratch that previous entry. They got the major life threatening symptoms caused by cushing's syndrome under control using an assortment of drugs.

Unfortunately, the drugs are just a way to make her more comfortable for now but cushing's has a 50% relapse chance. At least she gets to come home today.
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Time:01:10 am
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xxxxxxx33 (1:08:20 AM): im thinking that maybe we should just stay friends permanently.
xxxxxxx33 (1:08:32 AM): i dont want this to turn into any drama
xxxxxxx33 (1:08:41 AM): and i dont want to keep you waiting
aMa1337 (1:10:12 AM): if you don't mind me asking, specifically which one?
xxxxxxx33 (1:10:43 AM): i dont want to keep you waiting
xxxxxxx33 (1:11:43 AM): i honestly dont think it will turn into something more for me, i truly do care about you and i want you in my life but i would rather have that as a friendship.
xxxxxxx33 (1:11:45 AM): im sorry
xxxxxxx33 (1:12:14 AM): i would have much rather told you the next time we hung out, i was thinking about it last night and a lot of today
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It's unfortunate that the friendship will change dramatically because I'm not young and stupid anymore. At least now with all the past girl related learning experiences I know better than to still spend a lot of my free time with someone I like but can never have.

Ohhhh well.
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Time:12:11 am
Current Mood:annoyedannoyed
Why do girls have to be so complicated?

Why do they have to tell you they're interested in you, but not ready for a relationship?

Then tell you about other guys they're interested in and not knowing what to do?

I really don't like being strung along, I want some answers.
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Time:03:38 am
It's amazing how easy it is to not care.

Feels good man.
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Time:12:00 am
Current Mood:confusedconfused
I hate that someone I care about deeply is making an absolutely terrible choice in life. It actually bothers me to the point where thinking about it, makes my stomach turn. The worst part is, I get the impression that they're doing it for all the wrong reasons.

It sucks that you want me to censor my opinion to you, and if it involves "belittling" you in any way, you want nothing to do me as a friend ever again.

What the fuck am I suppose to do? Please, tell me?
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Time:10:07 pm
I met a girl. She's ridiculously cute, and part of me wants to believe it'll evolve into something. The other part of me wants to be set up for disappointment.

We'll see how the weekend goes for starters..

I miss my friends. Come visit you fucks.
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Time:05:40 am
I'm getting married in 7 years.

Hopefully she'll see this, and smile.
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Time:05:44 am
I don't like washington too much.

I'm lagging behind on getting my australian work visa.

Life is 'bleh' at the moment.

On a better note, warhammer is fucking amazing.
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Time:01:21 am
Aries (12 Mar - 19 Apr)

If you want something or someone, your feelings could grow so intense today that you express yourself in a foolish manner. Fortunately, if you are wise enough to listen to the advice of a friend, you'll wait a few days before making your move. Keep in mind that you can still experience your own emotions without having to share them in a way that makes anyone else uncomfortable.
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Don't ask why I'm looking up a horoscope at 1 am but it happened. It's interesting to say the least.
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Time:12:10 pm
I'd like to accomplish 8 out of 10 things on this list before 2009.

1. Get my EMT cert.
2. Get an EMS field job.
3. Get approved for an Australian work visa.
4. Save at least $5,000 for Australia.
5. Run at least 10 miles a week.
6. Explore Seattle.
7. Visit California.
8. Finish drawing my tattoo.
9. Buy another D-SLR.
10. Quit smoking.
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Time:05:41 am
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more cat pictures
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Time:01:25 am
So, I'm in Washington, Port Orchard to be exact. It's ok so far. The place my mom is renting is fucking tiny, its 3 bedrooms for 5 people. We looked at some really nice houses yesterday so hopefully the house in canada sells soon.

My stupid NR EMT thing hasn't updated yet so I can't take my national registry yet. I can't be an EMT here until I get a Washington license anyways so it will be at least a month. I have to register to vote so I can verify my address to even get my WA drivers license, its a pain in the ass up here.

I feel lonely since I don't know anyone here yet, but its nice having my family around.

Also, there's tons of pregnant bitches and lots of bros.
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Time:02:23 am
Change of plans. My flight leaves monday night at 9:40 pm

I still need a place friday-sunday to sleep at.

I do have family in town but, I'd rather not stay with them.
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Time:01:37 pm
Fucking salmon bot.

http://community.livejournal.com/themissinghat/16480.html


Sooo...if you ever get an IM from someone named "XXXXXXSlamon" its a bot connecting 2 people who posted LJ updates at near the same time, and both people have their aim listed in their info and they're available.

Pretty interesting, I almost hope it happens again.
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Time:01:15 pm
My mom is still looking for a place in port orchard washington, no luck yet. The offer on her house also fell through so shes still waiting on that.

I think I may end up getting a job in washington for about 2 months then leaving for Australia earlier then planned. No point in waiting around really if I can get my visa quick enough.
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Time:03:55 pm
So Ash and I aren't together anymore. I'm not really sure how to feel about it at the moment simply because I went from listening to a voicemail about her thinking I was an asshole and how much she hated me, to getting a text message about how she loved me.

Either way, fuck it. Washington in less then 2 weeks, then in 6 months I'll be living in Australia with 2 of my good friends.
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Time:09:37 am
moving to washington in a few weeks, need to get rid of my tv.

http://www. vizio. com/products/detail. aspx?pid=22

Retails for $750-800 depending on where you go.

I also have a $200 sony surround sound system / dvd player to go with it.


Also have an xbox 360 + wireless controller + headset I need to get rid of.


Message me if you're interested, package deal for the tv and sound system but willing to let them go cheap. Need to rid of it asap.
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Time:03:09 am
I love being drunk and insulting people.

I hope I ruined your night :)
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Time:10:51 pm
My national registry for my EMT cert is scheduled for wednesday the 16th at 1:30pm.

Wish me luck.
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Time:07:44 am
Ashley bought a 1 way ticket, she'll be here friday.

I'm done with school, I can schedule my national registry tomorrow.

I'm moving to australia before 2009 with ahmed and erik, we're opening a business.

Life is good.
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Time:08:31 am
Assuming I have money this week I can schedule my national registry, after that I can go apply for jobs.

Also assuming I pass my NR-EMT 1 exam.
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Time:05:38 am
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Time:02:09 am
http://break.com/index/death-metal-puppy.html

lol.
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Time:02:32 pm
So I drove this today:

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All I can say is...

Holy shit. LS6 vette engine in a cadillac was amazing. If I can afford one in the next 2 months, im buying one and its my present to me.
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Time:12:09 am
I don't know if im doing anything for my birthday since I have class at 9 am the next day.

I'll let everyone know whats going on.
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Time:04:56 am
I think I am done with drinking and drugs for a while.

Its a depressing lifestyle.

Waking up and looking forward to getting fucked up is kinda pathetic.

I still think you're pathetic, I just don't voice it very often.

You should probably delete me from your phone, and all those wonderful texts you have locked as well. Of course, you would never do that because you're a bitter unforgiving person. Though just in case, I thought I would put it out there as a suggestion to help you move on. You might actually end up happy again someday.
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Time:03:10 am
GraceCollapse )
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Time:06:24 pm
So I found a buyer for my camera, then he went out and bought some piece of shit sony SLR. GG

Now im stressed about rent coming up.
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Time:11:29 pm
http://www.triumph.co.uk/usa/Daytona%20675_5340.aspx

I need that.

Note the word use in my previous sentence.
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Time:02:40 am
You know what is awesome?

Spending 4 hours in SF taking pictures then coming home super late and being excited to look at them on a full size monitor. Except I can't look at them on my computer because I have misplaced my sync cord :(

2 more weeks of EMT school.

I know how to dose epinephrine to someone going into anaphylactic shock. Oh I also learned how to make people vomit and poop black for a week!
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Time:11:56 pm
Class at 9am and skills testing all day..I think its trauma assessment or something important like that. Im not looking forward to it as, I have already done it once and because our normal teacher is out of town and the other guy is a douche.

My birthday is in almost 3 weeks. Jakes birthday is a week later. Erik's birthday is a week after that. Craig said he might go halves with a friend on a keg of something delicious if we throw a huge party. Guess we'll see.

Oh and I got my septum pierced on saturday for those of you who missed the bulletin about it. I have a video of it on my cell phone =D

Why do I always want what I can't have? I have the worst timing evar.
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Subject:photography
Time:07:36 pm
If you happen to need pictures of yourself, or a friend that are of professional quality - please let me know. My extra bedroom is setup like a studio for the next couple days and I would enjoy using it a few more times before I start charging for pictures.

Samples...Collapse )

(these pictures haven't gone through post process work minus resize and my stamp)

I can do anything from normal potraits to lingerie type stuff if you need, and we can work something out where we'll both benefit from it.
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Time:05:38 am
Going to school with 4 hours of sleep is gonna blow ass, but I had fun tonight.

Im gonna go apply at gallo on monday or tuesday so I can be busy monday-thursday as well as the weekends.

Im hoping by late april I will be working at AMR full time. If thats the case, im going to purchase another 350Z sometime in may. At least, thats the plan right now.
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Time:05:16 am
I'll find out later today if im staying in california or back to canada.

Guess either way ill be happy in the end, just one sooner then the other.
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Time:05:32 am
I wonder how many people I can fool into believing im actually happy.

Isn't that what life is all about?
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Time:03:46 am
My cough hasn't gone away but my fever has.

Doctor visit is definitely in the works for monday so I can get some medicine that will actually cure whatever is causing the cough instead of just masking it for a few hours.
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Time:06:18 am
So my brother lands at SFO in 4 hours.

Today I am going to start listing my stuff for sale on craigslist so I can move back home.

I decided overall its a better choice because I wont have the opportunity to partake in all the alcohol and drugs that are currently in my life.

Also, my mom is buying a house near seattle and plans on moving within the next 6 months. They might even buy the house this weekend while they are there looking.

If you happen to be interested in a 37" LCD 720p TV + a surround sound system for roughly $650, let me know. I paid a little over a grand for it 6 months ago. Also my desktop is up for grabs + the monitor, im asking in the 1200-1300 range, I paid 2 grand 6 months ago. Lastly, a 1972 datsun 240z - runs fine but the tail lights and interior lights dont work $2500.

The faster I can get rid of those things, the faster I can leave.
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Time:09:27 pm
I've been really really sick for 2 days now.

Thankfully yesterday wasn't too horrible because Tomi came over and took care of me. Im guessing my temperature is still in the 100's today and I can't keep anything down. Im starving but everytime I try to eat I just get sick.

Im glad there is no drama between me and Tomi because I missed having her as a good friend.
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Time:09:59 am
Today is going suck.

I have a feeling I've been lied too a lot lately.
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Time:11:07 am
Last night was exactly what I needed to keep me happy for a while.
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Time:02:35 am
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Time:11:27 pm
Ugh. /wrists

No srsly, life is shitty.
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Time:04:05 am
Tomorrow I find out if I can renew my lease or not. If I can't, i'll have a nice list of things im selling. It'll give me enough money to move back to canada and have enough left over to do whatever I want.

I would prefer to keep the place, and find work and finish school. Buy another 675 and enjoy life.

I just wish I had someone to fall asleep with.
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Time:09:20 pm
So, im single again.

I was pretty happy until this month.

I guess its better in the end.

Im really tempted to be very mean right now and say all these horrible things but, I do still love her.

**edit**

I need a roommate.
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Time:05:06 pm
I feel like shit. I haven't felt this bad in months and months.

I need someone to give me a hug and tell me everything is going to be alright.

I have a feeling tonights going to end up like the last few nights and thats good.
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Time:05:31 am
<3 thank you.
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Time:03:15 am
Jake's flying to California next month on the 22nd, to live with his girlfriend.

Hopefully I can convince him to live with me, instead of that breezy.

If Jake moves in, my place is officially BGS headquarters.
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Time:12:44 am
Yup. Pretty fucking shitty night.
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Time:03:51 pm
I have a feeling today is going to totally suck ass.

You'll be hearing back from me around 1 or 2 am to let you know if I was right or not.
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